Thursday, July 29, 2010

Weird how time works.

It's kind of late at night but I started facebook stalking like I usually do at all kinds of odd hours and I realized how time changes everything. A lot of my relationships changed over time. Not necessarily romantic pursuits, but just relationships in general. It's weird looking at old friends' facebooks. You know, the people whom you added just because you went to high school with them and not necessarily because you were good friends with them. It's strange. I see people whom I've stopped talking for years and I see their facebooks and they've changed so much. No shit, right? But it's weird because I've cemented some people as their preteen selves, not adults.

For example, some friends have gotten married. It's so surreal to think of these people getting married because I would never marry at 21. Personally, I feel like I'm not mature enough to even handle a relationship, never mind a relationship that is supposed to last my whole life. But I see people around me getting married and I'm thinking, what are they doing. Of course each couple is different and who am I to judge. It's just strange.

I also see a lot of people with tattoos and piercings. I'm currently tattoo and piercing free because I don't like needles and I frankly don't feel like doing something permanent to my body, even something as little as a piercing. But I see friends with crazy piercings and huge tattoos and it kind of astounds me. Not in a bad way. Just in shock. Maybe my mindframe is still stuck in teenage years or something and I don't think something like that would happen. I don't know.

But that's kind of a tangent of what I wanna talk about. I feel like time is the ultimate enabler for deteriorating relationships. There are people that I was once really close to, but for some reason or another, stopped hanging out with. It kind of saddens me because there are so many friends that I've lost touch with and don't talk to anymore. Some of these friends took years to get to know each other and trust each other, but after not communicating for a few months, all that hard work goes away. It just makes me kind of sad because I feel like the friendships that I have now might one day go away. :\

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I wonder if this inability to keep a blog active shows how bad I am to commitments. I must also whore myself out because I have so many blogs..

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

My Sleeping Schedule is Royally Fucked.

Well, I've always had trouble keeping blogs/journals afloat, hence the first post in more than half a year. But it's 3:47AM right now and I've officially run out of things to do. I've even trolled around Neopets for a hour. (BTW, I've been on that site for 7 years now with my current username. I forgot my first username..) And facebook games aren't entertaining enough.

But why am I up at this hour? Because my sleeping has been pretty erratic. Last week, I was sleeping from 7AM - 3PM roughly. And then I went on my snowboarding trip and I ended up staying up all night on the first day. Fastforward to now, I'm sleeping at 4PM - 1AM roughly. I have to say, this is the weirdest interval of sleep that I've had. But I actually see the morning and fool my mom in thinking that I sleep earlier.

Ugh, I guess I have to wait till I'm old and can't stay awake past midnight.